Been awhile....but 6.2 lbs in 7 days

I am doing great. I fell of the wagon 2 different days. The 2nd time that I didn't blog about was on Friday. There was so much going on in my life emotionally but I tried not to make that an excuse. I went to the mall to pick up something and I decided to ask the survey people what they had (paid for my opinion..SURE). He had an ice cream taste test...hhhmmmm let me thing...YEP I will do it. I tested 4 diff choc ice creams. Got paid $5. Not bad. But to be honest I felt sick within 20 min of it. I had not had that kind of sugar intake in a week. Oh well I didn't stop there. Mom and I went to Outback. I had fries..oh and they were good. Then I went to A bible study with some wonderful friends and we pigged. I felt so sick and so uncomfortable. I realized that the amount of food I consumed was stretching the size of my stomach. YUCK.

This weekend began rough. No details I will be sharing but I ran to Turkey Hill after being very upset and I was going to get a FV capp. I had to get milk because we ran out but dang it I deserved a FV. Well that day was supposed to be 1 of 2 cleanse days. I got there and was excited. I grabbed the cup placed it in the machine and stopped. What am I doing? will this really heal my heart? NOPE! So I put the cup back. This may seem small to any who reads this but it is HUGE in my world.

Anyway I went home and I cleansed yesterday. That means you are only drinking the provide tropical juice. 4oz every 4 hours. I also had 2 apples and 5 almonds and half a bag of baby carrots. Yes that is cheating by the way. If you can do it with out any other food besides the wafers DO IT. I was not able to. I went to bed so hungry. But I got on the scale and I am down to 150. Man I was so happy but then I remembered...crap I was just 140 not to long ago. OK stinking thinking..done with that. I am celebrating that I lost 6.2 lbs in 7 days so far. YES...loving that.

Today is a cleanse day. I got church this morning...enjoying the beautiful day and then the kids to Awana's this evening. I will post the measurements in the morning since it will the end of week 1. By the way I am 1 week without caffeine.

Fell off the wagon...

It all started with a nice play date and some pretzel rods. I had 4. No big deal right. Then I cooked some chick and asparagus on the grill and used organic peach salsa for a dressing. I busted open the veggie chips for the kids and it went down hill from there. I had to prove to Kathryn they were good. Oh and yes they were. Then I found my hand in the bag a few more HUNDRED times. I didn't finish the bad but came darn close. SO then my mind set it SCREW it I already ruined the day. Had to fight that one for awhile. A few hours later as the kids wanted another snack I opened an organic bunny cereal and tried it. Yep you guessed it..it was good. So I had a few handfuls of that. Then I thought the only way to recover is to not eat anything else..for the whole evening. Yeah well today went so well (besides staying on track)that I thought...it isn't worth it. So I had my home made chicken soup and threw a few pretzel snaps in there. It was yummy. OH and I ended it with 2 Weight Watchers brownies...OK There..that is total confession. In my mind I rationalize the fact that I didn't dig into the jelly beans or the chocolate or even the ice cream. I kept healthy choices but went off today's program. What is done is done and there will be a fresh start as I wake up. I have time in the morning to do the elliptical. I will have my shake and then we meet friends at the park for a tricycle play date with a picnic lunch.

Rough Night

Well I didn't sleep so well. The carrots didn't do crap for my gurgling belly. So that was an issue and my poor little Kathryn was stuffy so she kept waking up. Not easy to fall asleep after tending to her when your stomach is yelling at you.

I weighed myself this morning and I was the same. OK now I see why they say not to weigh yourself every week. 1 time on day 1 and the next on Day 8. SO I think I may try it..because my first thought was..COME ON..I can maintain with out starving. But then again this is not all about weight loss. This is about cleansing my body and getting healthier. So if I focus on the weight loss I will get distracted. Yet I am programmed to do that.

Today we have therapies for Kathryn and I am going to hang out at a friends house. I have a sore throat that is trying to get me but I won't let it.

Lunch I am going to have a nice meal of chicken and asparagus....yum.

No working out this morning. I will try at nap time.

Made it thru MOPS, Wendy's and late night TV

Man I am on a roll...and darn proud of myself. I didn't eat anything I wasn't supposed to today. I had the MOPS meeting and had 7 grapes. I hung out at my moms house..where my Mountain Dew was waiting for me..didn't indulge. Even went grocery shopping and nothing went in my cart that want organic or healthy. Then I took the kids to the MOPS Wendy's night. I went on an empty stomach. My tummy growled as the good smells assaulted me. But I got the kids nuggets and fries and choc milk. And I sat there for an hour while all my friends and family ate...and I didn't. As soon as I got into the car I had 2 wafer snacks and when I got home I made myself an yummy shake. Whew...disaster averted. But wait tonight was my shows..what the crap do I do. Well I can skip them and go to bed but that isn't really learning new behaviors and not realistic long term. So I stayed up and watched Biggest Loser and snacked on 15 baby carrots. That is it for the day. I DVR'd Biggest Loser and started it late so I could fast forward thru the commercials. My kids keep getting out of bed even though I put them in 1 hr and 45 min ago...dirty buggars. So I will finish the last few minutes of B.L. then go to bed..with out a Tylenol PM tonight since I had carrots. I notice I am a lot more groggy in the morning with that in me.

Good night.

No Isaflush for me...

Ok lesson learned. I took 1 Isaflush and had a hard time towards the end of MOPS for about an hour. My stomach began to hurt and not in a normal I have use the bathroom hurt. It was like after surgery and you are bloating etc. UGH it was terrible. I am not going to use that tomorrow and see how it goes. I can not say UGH enough.

Other then that..I went to MOPS and smelled all the yummy food. Man ladies plates were piled huh. Oh and I mean piled...then we played this game. Stand up if you..XY or Z. Then she said if you took a shower this morning..so I stood..along with half the moms. Then she said stay standing if you showered AND worked out this morning...all the moms (out of 60) sat down..except me. I was the only one who exercised this morning. WOW and I almost didn't get on the elliptical. I got to go to the prize basket and it was a tough choice between the choc bar and this book. The book won of course..*smile*

I did eat an apple and 7 grapes at MOPS. I brought the apple myself. For lunch I had some pretzels and soup. My throat is a bit scratchy and has been for a few days..I am praying this cold that Kathryn has doesn't get me. I think tomorrow I will begin to take Coldeze. I did get to take a nap at my moms after MOPS...trying to get my rest.

Lost and Biggest Loser are on tonight. Normally this would excite me but I am starving about 6pm..so these shows last till 10pm. What the crap do I do for those 4 hours? Eat air? Maybe with a side of water? I could have 2 Isa snacks...ooohhhh I am so lucky! Oh well maybe I DVR the shows and watch them at nap time tomorrow. That way I can forward thru commercials anyway.

Another obstacle coming up is Friday night Bible Study with the ladies...we fill a coffee table full of food and CHOW DOWN. And it is all good (not good for you) food...such as life on a quest to better health.

Off to Acme to check out their organic section.

in a hurry....

This will be short and sweet cause I am in a hurry. I did my 30 min on the elliptical and thought about cutting it short but didn't. The beautiful thing about drinking lots of water is what goes in must come back out. I got up to pee every 3 hours last night. This mornings weight was 152.2 then I worked out and peed and it was 151.6 How funny water weight can be.

On to MOPS...where there is lots of food I can not eat.

Oh yeah I tried the Ionix Supreme stuff for the first time this morn..NASTY. They suggest you can dilute it in water...I will be doing that tomorrow...

I am hungry....grrrr

Well it is almost bed time..thank you Jesus. I am so ready to be done. I am hungry. I was good till the last blog then I got hungry. I had my apple and then the hunger kicked in. I wanted to grab a bag of pretzels and chow down..but I didn't. I poured myself an nice glass of tall cold water and guzzled it. The hunger never went away. I think it was more a mental thing then a true hunger thing. Must break old habits. I do need a Tylenol PM to get to sleep when I am this hungry though. Nice exchange...but I will deal. I tried sleeping on an empty stomach but I tossed and turned all night. No thanks. Well my teeth are brushed and I am about to put the kids in bed. If I sit and watch TV I will eat..so I am going to bed. I plan on working out in the AM but that schedule is going to be a tight one with cooking the casserole and getting the kids ready then getting to MOPS early to set up since I didn't make the special trip today. Off to dream of burgers and fries..I mean shakes and water...

It arrived...

Well the UPS guy braved the stream and he brought me my product. The 30 day has much more involvement then the 9 day. There are a few products I haven't tried. So this will be interesting. So today till Saturday I will be on the plan of shakes and a meal (lunch). I will drink lots of purified water (Brita in fridge) and take the accelerator capsules which contain lots of energy giving things (like tea leaf extract and dried cinnamon bark) and the new things are the Ionix supreme, a drink I need to have 1-2 ounces of for a boost. See I am used to a higher dosage of accelerator and no supreme. And 1-2 capsules of a flush..keeps you regular I guess. Never been a problem for me really.

So I opened my box up and played with all my new product...I am official now. Wasn't sure what I was going to do if UPS didn't deliver.

Only did 15 min on the elliptical. Kids slept in so did I (which rocked) but then time flew by and I ran out of it...had to make breakfast etc. 30 min tomorrow is fine for me..and from then on. Will not obsess. Just work it in tomorrow.

I feel great. Normally by this time everyday I am so looking forward to a nap. Not today. I went outside and cleaned up everything that was misplaced by plowing..I am so looking forward to the 60 degree days later this week.

So the rest of my day looks like this. More water consumption which equals more pee breaks, an apple as soon as I publish this..and then a yummy choc shake for dinner. And I am done.

Early in the morning I will be posting my weight and my plan. I have MOPS in the morning so I will be baking a casserole that I can not eat. Better then cookies I can't it. I will survive..last night I was so hungry but the accountability of this blog kept me from noshing.

Off to enjoy an apple!

Day 1..will the product arrive through the water?

Well we have a huge creek going over our driveway and 2 thoughts crossed my mind when I woke up. I hope we can get Kathryn to her K registration meeting and man I hope my Isagenix gets delivered. It looks like we might be able to get out to the meeting..so that is what really counts. She is looking forward to it.

Anyway I was quite hungry when I went to bed and really hungry when I woke up. But man the pride I feel in sticking to something outweighs (no pun intended) the grumbles in my belly.

TODAY'S WEIGHT is....152 that is a loss of over 4 lbs. Water weight..sure...unhealthy stuff stuck in my body...gone...so now I start today 4.2 lbs lighter. I am OK with that.

Jumping on the elliptical for 30 min..rolling hills with the lowest level a 2 or 3.

Today will consist of the Choc shakes and a meal (lunch). The meal needs to be about 400 calories. And I can use the wafer snacks through out the day if I need to.

Man what a day

OK so the cleanse hasn't even really begun but a precleanse SUCKED. Today consisted of only the liquid cleanse 4 oz 4 times today and a lot of water. I also had 6 snacks (they come with the program). They are like little choc powder wafers. Nothing like a good burger but darn good when that is the only thing you can have.

Today was tough on so many levels. Drama, sick kids, (actually as soon as I typed this I heard gagging and had to run to up to help a little one throw up) Anyway it was a rough day not to be eating.

I did not stray. I did not cave when the kids had popcorn during our movie tonight. But I am hungry and tired but darn proud of myself for not straying today.

I will be weighing myself everyday and measuring myself each week to update on that.

Good night.

Weight and measurements Pre cleanse!

Weight-156.2

Measurements:
Neck-13.25
Lft upper arm unflexed-11.25
rt upper arm-11.25
chest-36.5
rib cage-30
belly button-31.5
gut-35
hips-39.5
lft thigh-22
right thigh-23
left calf-13
right calf-13.25


May these numbers drop GREATLY as I go on this journey!

Pre-Day 1...couldn't wait till it arrived.

I had some Cleanse in my fridge and decided I had enough. This came after I sat in front of the TV with a bowl of strawberry ice cream and a jar of natural PB (which I shouldn't even have in the house with Nicholas' allergies)and I housed quite a bit of it. When I was watching a movie with the kids earlier I swear the ice cream was calling my name. I wanted to eat it then but then I would have to share with the kids..I wanted the PB and Nicholas can't be near it so I waited. The minute they were in bed I practically ran to the freezer. Pathetic yes..the truth..yes. Anyway I laid in bed last night..burping up PB..it was the natural kind so it is much nuttier and thicker..so it stuck with me to remind me of my sins..thanks! Anyway I laid their and thought about my relationship with food. How I can not find the balance in my life with food (well with anything actually but that is another blog). I thought about how I feel when I indulge and then how I feel afterward. Ugh. I then thought, as a parent, if I saw my kids doing this I would intervene..yet us moms do it all the time. We eat like there is no tomorrow then wonder why we have to grease ourselves up to get into the pants that fit last week. Ugh..the definition of insanity is doing the same thing time and time again and expecting different results.

That brings me to Day 1. Different results..different tactic. I am starting an Isagenix 30 day cleanse. So I have already had 4 oz of Cleanse for life. Can't say I would drink it if I had to buy it off the shelf as a beverage of choice..but for a nutritional drink it is pretty good. Especially when you know all the good stuff that is in it. Makes it work the quick swallow. I didn't sleep well last night and the tension in the house was thick this morning. Kathryn threw up on her own spit so we are home from church. Anyway all this to say...I really wanted to drive to Turkey Hill and get a French Vanilla to sooth my issues. But now that and things like that are what got me into this unhealthy life style for a reason. Some of you reading this..if any one reads this...may not think I have unhealthy lifestyles..you may say that is nothing compared to what I do. But what is unhealthy for me is unhealthy for me..and I want to live my life to the fullest while I am still blessed with my next breath. Tomorrow is not promised so make the most of today.

This is 30 days long..that is a long freaking time. I looked at the calendar and realized this will take me till April 13th I think. That 30 days will include a 2 day seminar at church, Easter dinner and the coveted Women's Retreat...ugh what do I do for that. I want to pre plan and make a list etc..but I have decided to take one day at a time. Today is today and nothing more.

So join me on this journey..it may be boring for you though. Because I will be posting often. More then I should. Don't know the rules about blogging...not into journaling so this is new. If I want a snack that I can not have I will be coming to the blog. And mind you there is nothing I can not have in this world..I chose not to have it (food wise of course) Sure I can go drink my FV Capp. But that defeats the purpose of my 30 day journey to better health. And I will be open and honest about feelings, up and downs, binges, hunger etc. I will not be talking about my home life much, I am in the middle of a divorce of which I caused..my sin was BIG and I will never deny that. But I do not want a divorce. I love my husband and I am holding on with all my might. I have 2 beautiful children. Kathryn who is 4.5 will be entering K next year. She has Down syndrome. Nicholas is 3.5 and he will be in pre K next year ( I have home schooled till now). He has asthma and allergies. (we are in the middle of an asthma flare now.) OK BOOHOO somethings are a bit tougher in my life then others..but man am I blessed with those trial and tribulations. There are no coincidences in life if you believe in God and oh do I believe.

Oh and I am ADD (self diagnosed) so when I type it is how I think..so if I don't finish a sentence..welcome to the world of my poor family...what is she talking about..I don't know just nod...she will think she has made her point..:)

Next entry will be all my stats. It sucks hard core because I was stable at 140 before the holidays. Not so much now. I can feel it. 5-10 lb gain didn't matter when I was 250. But it sure does now. I can lose 100 lbs but I can't lose the last 10-20. SO here we go. It comes down to the last of the weight, the last of the unhealthy eating habits...and learning to create balance in my life at the same time.

Trial Post...

OK here is goes. I have never blogged before so I am a duck out of water. I barely keep a journal so this is all new to me. Let alone setting up a blog page. Ugh so bare with me here. This is a test blog entry to see if goes where I want it to go. Let the blogging begin.