Been awhile....but 6.2 lbs in 7 days

I am doing great. I fell of the wagon 2 different days. The 2nd time that I didn't blog about was on Friday. There was so much going on in my life emotionally but I tried not to make that an excuse. I went to the mall to pick up something and I decided to ask the survey people what they had (paid for my opinion..SURE). He had an ice cream taste test...hhhmmmm let me thing...YEP I will do it. I tested 4 diff choc ice creams. Got paid $5. Not bad. But to be honest I felt sick within 20 min of it. I had not had that kind of sugar intake in a week. Oh well I didn't stop there. Mom and I went to Outback. I had fries..oh and they were good. Then I went to A bible study with some wonderful friends and we pigged. I felt so sick and so uncomfortable. I realized that the amount of food I consumed was stretching the size of my stomach. YUCK.

This weekend began rough. No details I will be sharing but I ran to Turkey Hill after being very upset and I was going to get a FV capp. I had to get milk because we ran out but dang it I deserved a FV. Well that day was supposed to be 1 of 2 cleanse days. I got there and was excited. I grabbed the cup placed it in the machine and stopped. What am I doing? will this really heal my heart? NOPE! So I put the cup back. This may seem small to any who reads this but it is HUGE in my world.

Anyway I went home and I cleansed yesterday. That means you are only drinking the provide tropical juice. 4oz every 4 hours. I also had 2 apples and 5 almonds and half a bag of baby carrots. Yes that is cheating by the way. If you can do it with out any other food besides the wafers DO IT. I was not able to. I went to bed so hungry. But I got on the scale and I am down to 150. Man I was so happy but then I remembered...crap I was just 140 not to long ago. OK stinking thinking..done with that. I am celebrating that I lost 6.2 lbs in 7 days so far. YES...loving that.

Today is a cleanse day. I got church this morning...enjoying the beautiful day and then the kids to Awana's this evening. I will post the measurements in the morning since it will the end of week 1. By the way I am 1 week without caffeine.

Fell off the wagon...

It all started with a nice play date and some pretzel rods. I had 4. No big deal right. Then I cooked some chick and asparagus on the grill and used organic peach salsa for a dressing. I busted open the veggie chips for the kids and it went down hill from there. I had to prove to Kathryn they were good. Oh and yes they were. Then I found my hand in the bag a few more HUNDRED times. I didn't finish the bad but came darn close. SO then my mind set it SCREW it I already ruined the day. Had to fight that one for awhile. A few hours later as the kids wanted another snack I opened an organic bunny cereal and tried it. Yep you guessed it..it was good. So I had a few handfuls of that. Then I thought the only way to recover is to not eat anything else..for the whole evening. Yeah well today went so well (besides staying on track)that I thought...it isn't worth it. So I had my home made chicken soup and threw a few pretzel snaps in there. It was yummy. OH and I ended it with 2 Weight Watchers brownies...OK There..that is total confession. In my mind I rationalize the fact that I didn't dig into the jelly beans or the chocolate or even the ice cream. I kept healthy choices but went off today's program. What is done is done and there will be a fresh start as I wake up. I have time in the morning to do the elliptical. I will have my shake and then we meet friends at the park for a tricycle play date with a picnic lunch.

Rough Night

Well I didn't sleep so well. The carrots didn't do crap for my gurgling belly. So that was an issue and my poor little Kathryn was stuffy so she kept waking up. Not easy to fall asleep after tending to her when your stomach is yelling at you.

I weighed myself this morning and I was the same. OK now I see why they say not to weigh yourself every week. 1 time on day 1 and the next on Day 8. SO I think I may try it..because my first thought was..COME ON..I can maintain with out starving. But then again this is not all about weight loss. This is about cleansing my body and getting healthier. So if I focus on the weight loss I will get distracted. Yet I am programmed to do that.

Today we have therapies for Kathryn and I am going to hang out at a friends house. I have a sore throat that is trying to get me but I won't let it.

Lunch I am going to have a nice meal of chicken and asparagus....yum.

No working out this morning. I will try at nap time.

Made it thru MOPS, Wendy's and late night TV

Man I am on a roll...and darn proud of myself. I didn't eat anything I wasn't supposed to today. I had the MOPS meeting and had 7 grapes. I hung out at my moms house..where my Mountain Dew was waiting for me..didn't indulge. Even went grocery shopping and nothing went in my cart that want organic or healthy. Then I took the kids to the MOPS Wendy's night. I went on an empty stomach. My tummy growled as the good smells assaulted me. But I got the kids nuggets and fries and choc milk. And I sat there for an hour while all my friends and family ate...and I didn't. As soon as I got into the car I had 2 wafer snacks and when I got home I made myself an yummy shake. Whew...disaster averted. But wait tonight was my shows..what the crap do I do. Well I can skip them and go to bed but that isn't really learning new behaviors and not realistic long term. So I stayed up and watched Biggest Loser and snacked on 15 baby carrots. That is it for the day. I DVR'd Biggest Loser and started it late so I could fast forward thru the commercials. My kids keep getting out of bed even though I put them in 1 hr and 45 min ago...dirty buggars. So I will finish the last few minutes of B.L. then go to bed..with out a Tylenol PM tonight since I had carrots. I notice I am a lot more groggy in the morning with that in me.

Good night.

No Isaflush for me...

Ok lesson learned. I took 1 Isaflush and had a hard time towards the end of MOPS for about an hour. My stomach began to hurt and not in a normal I have use the bathroom hurt. It was like after surgery and you are bloating etc. UGH it was terrible. I am not going to use that tomorrow and see how it goes. I can not say UGH enough.

Other then that..I went to MOPS and smelled all the yummy food. Man ladies plates were piled huh. Oh and I mean piled...then we played this game. Stand up if you..XY or Z. Then she said if you took a shower this morning..so I stood..along with half the moms. Then she said stay standing if you showered AND worked out this morning...all the moms (out of 60) sat down..except me. I was the only one who exercised this morning. WOW and I almost didn't get on the elliptical. I got to go to the prize basket and it was a tough choice between the choc bar and this book. The book won of course..*smile*

I did eat an apple and 7 grapes at MOPS. I brought the apple myself. For lunch I had some pretzels and soup. My throat is a bit scratchy and has been for a few days..I am praying this cold that Kathryn has doesn't get me. I think tomorrow I will begin to take Coldeze. I did get to take a nap at my moms after MOPS...trying to get my rest.

Lost and Biggest Loser are on tonight. Normally this would excite me but I am starving about 6pm..so these shows last till 10pm. What the crap do I do for those 4 hours? Eat air? Maybe with a side of water? I could have 2 Isa snacks...ooohhhh I am so lucky! Oh well maybe I DVR the shows and watch them at nap time tomorrow. That way I can forward thru commercials anyway.

Another obstacle coming up is Friday night Bible Study with the ladies...we fill a coffee table full of food and CHOW DOWN. And it is all good (not good for you) food...such as life on a quest to better health.

Off to Acme to check out their organic section.

in a hurry....

This will be short and sweet cause I am in a hurry. I did my 30 min on the elliptical and thought about cutting it short but didn't. The beautiful thing about drinking lots of water is what goes in must come back out. I got up to pee every 3 hours last night. This mornings weight was 152.2 then I worked out and peed and it was 151.6 How funny water weight can be.

On to MOPS...where there is lots of food I can not eat.

Oh yeah I tried the Ionix Supreme stuff for the first time this morn..NASTY. They suggest you can dilute it in water...I will be doing that tomorrow...

I am hungry....grrrr

Well it is almost bed time..thank you Jesus. I am so ready to be done. I am hungry. I was good till the last blog then I got hungry. I had my apple and then the hunger kicked in. I wanted to grab a bag of pretzels and chow down..but I didn't. I poured myself an nice glass of tall cold water and guzzled it. The hunger never went away. I think it was more a mental thing then a true hunger thing. Must break old habits. I do need a Tylenol PM to get to sleep when I am this hungry though. Nice exchange...but I will deal. I tried sleeping on an empty stomach but I tossed and turned all night. No thanks. Well my teeth are brushed and I am about to put the kids in bed. If I sit and watch TV I will eat..so I am going to bed. I plan on working out in the AM but that schedule is going to be a tight one with cooking the casserole and getting the kids ready then getting to MOPS early to set up since I didn't make the special trip today. Off to dream of burgers and fries..I mean shakes and water...